The Plan We Don't See

(just noticed I wrote the same thing like one week ago but the thing is I have no recollection of writing that so here's this. whatever!)

There are few things better than an unexpected wonderful moment, even one that lasts for four hours long. You expect good things from spending a weekend with your friends, a church retreat or even summer camp but those times when you never saw it coming? Nothing like it. Not only is your day or week brightened by such a great surprise but it really... humbles you. You realize that there is more to your life than what you have planned. Here's the thing, when people say stuff like that, it's normally bad stuff that's not planned, but no one really considers the good stuff. This is why at times we see God as the one who balances out our life by adding bad while we plan the good, but that is so messed up. It is not a huge fault of ours; what else are we going to do? Sit around and wait for good stuff to happen when we could just plan it? But we've warped that into thinking, subconsciously, that we know what will be good always and we know what will be the best outcome. False. That is why, when good things happen completely randomly, it humbles me. It gives me peace, the fact that things are happening in my life that are so beyond me and my current self. More than that, that same peace makes it less scary to enter the world of the unknown in the form of college, the summer@Brown program, yearbook next year and so much more.

"The mind of a man plan his way, but the Lord directs his steps."

-Proverbs 16:9

cool verse huh?

Movie Making

The other day I was, as usual, thinking. This time I was thinking about movies vs. books and I had an epiphany that left me pleasantly surprised. All this time, I'd been thinking there was really nothing to movies. As much as I loved watching movies, watching them was just something that was a lesser alternative to reading books and I, being a sometimes stupid youth, also wrote off all the people that went into making a movie as people who had failed at producing a book.

I know! So stupid it almost makes you sad. I was listening to Harry Potter on tape and was about to watch the movie when it hit me, all the things that writers just get to say, like Harry is feeling this and Dumbledore looked like this, movie people have to create. Oh my god, lets think about what that means. When a writer says the room looked comfortable with shades of brown with the feel of a sanctuary, movie people have to create a room that matches all of those things! That's crazy. And when they get it right, which they do frequently, that's talent. Take actors now, the character felt scared and angry and happy all at the same time. How does one pretend to be that character feeling all of those things? To me, that seems impossible; to an actor, that's what their job. Never again will I compare book making and movie making because really, one is not better than the other, they are just completely different things.

Fellowship

It's funny where you find fellowship, isn't it? I think that's probably the beauty of it actually, that you sometimes would never have expected it. Freshman year, I didn't even know kids made the yearbook and now it's probably the only reason I don't cry everyday before going to school. Every time God surprises me in this way it just gives me more peace regarding my future, even if I can pick what school I go to or where I live, I can't pick the wonderful experiences I will have there.